I start a new job on Wednesday, which means I've left my current job. The job I got when I moved home from Japan and moved in with my mum and her man. My mum was always so instrumental in my job life, of course she was, just like her influence in every other part of my life. As I prepared for my first and then second interview for this new job I was longing for her guidance and reassurance. What should I wear? Why am I so nervous? Is this really a good idea?
It's still so painful sometimes. I just want her here. I didn't have any intentions of this blog being post after post of sadness but it seems to be turning into that.
Also I've gained some weight and have developed an issue with food and I know it's an issue. I'm not eating because I'm hungry I'm eating for comfort;to fill the loneliness. I'm hoping my new career venture will help me shrug off some of this lethargy and create a new zest for life.
But for now I'm going to make some popcorn and play some video games, might as well have a sugary soda too!
it will get better....and yes that's a wish not a certainty.
